So... I wasn't beautiful in your eyes...
What does it mean?
A lot.
Wednesday, September 27, 2017
Tuesday, August 2, 2016
The Dark Thoughts that Won't Go Away...
Hello there. Why is it that I only think of coming here when I am depressed. It's a mystery.
The dark voices and negatvitiy in my head are so overwhelming. I want to hurt myself so bad.
When was I this depressed previously? Probably quite some time ago. No one died or anything drastic happened. I just feel really out of control.
I have been breaking down at work abit too much. In fact I had such a bad episode lasr week I couldnt even continue working. Nothing happened. I am just a ticking time bomb waiting to explode anytime.
Maybe I am just too stressed out at work. The overwhelming loads of work I couldnt finish. The continuous phone calls. All the questions. All the deadlines. All the responsibilities.
I am so tired. My headache just wun go away. I just want to get away from all this shit. In a quiet place where I dun need to talk to anyone or answer anyone.
You know. Its an evil cycle. Breakingdown so often is just going to make me look weak to everyone.
I feel so detached from the world and everyone around me. Even those closest to me.
Feeling even more so today when no one cared if I can work when my back hurts so bad. I really yearn for at least some concern. But asked if I can go to class or go out with this back. Sorry thats the wrong answer. I am truly hurt. Like I am just a working tool and nothing else to you all. Of course I know that it is not the case but I am not functioning well enough to think properly.
Maybe its a wake up call. For me to not be too close to anyone. So that I wun be too sad if I am all alone in the future. Heck. I might not even be able to live that long when I am so mentally unstable.
My mind is so dark. My heart hurts so bad.
The dark voices and negatvitiy in my head are so overwhelming. I want to hurt myself so bad.
When was I this depressed previously? Probably quite some time ago. No one died or anything drastic happened. I just feel really out of control.
I have been breaking down at work abit too much. In fact I had such a bad episode lasr week I couldnt even continue working. Nothing happened. I am just a ticking time bomb waiting to explode anytime.
Maybe I am just too stressed out at work. The overwhelming loads of work I couldnt finish. The continuous phone calls. All the questions. All the deadlines. All the responsibilities.
I am so tired. My headache just wun go away. I just want to get away from all this shit. In a quiet place where I dun need to talk to anyone or answer anyone.
You know. Its an evil cycle. Breakingdown so often is just going to make me look weak to everyone.
I feel so detached from the world and everyone around me. Even those closest to me.
Feeling even more so today when no one cared if I can work when my back hurts so bad. I really yearn for at least some concern. But asked if I can go to class or go out with this back. Sorry thats the wrong answer. I am truly hurt. Like I am just a working tool and nothing else to you all. Of course I know that it is not the case but I am not functioning well enough to think properly.
Maybe its a wake up call. For me to not be too close to anyone. So that I wun be too sad if I am all alone in the future. Heck. I might not even be able to live that long when I am so mentally unstable.
My mind is so dark. My heart hurts so bad.
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Vanity Trove February 2013
Anyho~ Yay! Received my Vanity Trove for February 2013~~
Saturday, January 19, 2013
19 January 2013 - Dinner at Wrap & Roll (Vietnamese Food)
Dinner with the family at Wrap & Roll - Vietnamese Food.
Wrap & Roll Website: http://www.wrap-roll.com.sg/
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
New Year Countdown 2013 at Esplanade
And so the last 15 mins of 2012, we went to Esplanade for the New Year Countdown.
Initially we planned to go to our favorite "secret" spot last year at the Esplanade Rooftop. Apparently it is not so secret because it is closed. Being lost and unhappy I decided to ask for a reason. Someone booked the whole rooftop. Wah like seriously?!
And so we walked outside.
It was like raining the past few days so the grass are muddy and slightly drizzling...
It was also depressingly crowded and we are part of the crowd trying to look for a good spot. Which unfortunately din happen because the good spots are jammed.
We settled down at a more spacious spot and the following photos will explain why it is more spacious in the first place.
Initially we planned to go to our favorite "secret" spot last year at the Esplanade Rooftop. Apparently it is not so secret because it is closed. Being lost and unhappy I decided to ask for a reason. Someone booked the whole rooftop. Wah like seriously?!
And so we walked outside.
It was like raining the past few days so the grass are muddy and slightly drizzling...
It was also depressingly crowded and we are part of the crowd trying to look for a good spot. Which unfortunately din happen because the good spots are jammed.
We settled down at a more spacious spot and the following photos will explain why it is more spacious in the first place.
Thursday, April 19, 2012
Saturday, March 24, 2012
20110321 - My First March Vanity Trove
YAY! IT FINALLY ARRIVED!
My IMAGINERYBOYFRIEND GIGGLO(since I used my own money) bought me this~!
My IMAGINERY
(-_-) What a lie. Ah well. Anyway! I subscribed to Vanity Trove.
Vanity Trove is like you pay $25 every month and they deliver random beauty samples to your door step.
Awesomeness because I am too "busy"/lazy to step out of the house to buy my beauty supplies. Yet I really like trying new cosmetics and beauty products. Plus getting a surprise present every month can add excitement & happines to my #foreveralone life. Present for myself every month!
Anyho!
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