Oopx! So he's our neighbour?!

As my mother parked the car. I noticed a couple walking uphill especially the guy.
(Erm because I saw something interesting)

The guy looked at our direction too. Did i stare too hard?!

UNTIL I SAW THEM WALKING INTO THE NEXT DOOR.

ONLY DID I REALISE HE IS OUR NEIGHBOUR...

They have moved in for around 2 years and are ultra nice and polite but yet I still cant recognise their sons. *Cough*

Nice to the extent they burn stuff for the 7th month and some ashes flew over to our car which honestly we din even notice any dirt. They wanted to pass us money to wash our car and when we rejected they started washing our car secretly?! I am stunned by such people still exist. And how I suck at comparison. So does that mean when we burn we have to wash their whole house?! Coz I saw some flying to their house?

Actually even if he is to walk pass me tomorrow.

I think I still cant recognise him unless he step into the next door.

Dearest Neighbour. I AM SORRY!

Mini Typhoon

Awaken by strange sounds outside my window.

Saw the flags and trees waving in the wind like crazy.

Must close the window just in case something decides to fly in and kill me.

Should be over soon seeing how the sky is clearer than it was.

*Goes back to sleep*
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I am upset

I am upset because I finished my pile of work for today.

I am upset because I planned to take leave tomorrow.

I am upset because despite all my hard work and planning I still couldnt take my leave.

I am upset because the phrase "sense of responsibility" is used.

I am upset because it is rare for me to even finish my pile of work for a day for the past few years.

I am upset because of the reason I have to go back.

I am upset because I am starting to compare myself with others.

I am upset because I told myself I shouldnt.

I am upset because things never ever go the way I planned.

I am upset because I cant employ the person I want.

I am upset because of work.

I am upset because of the future.

I am upset because of the unfairness in life.

I am upset because I feel like my eyesight is failing and headaches is worsening.

I am upset because of how useless I am.

I am upset because despite all these years I still couldnt figure out where I am going in life.

I am upset because I wake up every morning still not knowing what I want in life.

I am upset because I felt like I wasted yet another day of my life every night before I sleep.

I am upset because even if I want to talk to someone about something, I couldnt because I just dun know how.

I am upset because of my shitty face and fats.

I am upset because I told myself I need to live my life more positively but yet feeling so suicidal now.

I am upset because I think my hormones are part of the reason.

I am upset because I think what I said doesnt make sense.

Natsu Matsuri 2010

At Natsu Matsuri with Tina chan now!

*Hearts*

Thank you Tina!! *Muacks*
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Thoughts from Work

As the number of employees in the office increase...

The disgusting thought of "this pile of work isn't mine" increases as well

Something I might not have when working alone.

Think of it in a good way!

Afterall you have only yourself to depend on and you learn more!!!
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Unmatching Shoes

So very irritating that after matching all the tops and ready to set off...

THE SHOES DUN MATCH!!!!
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3 Years Ago

Three Years have passed since that day...
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False Alarm

HOHOHO! MC today!

My right eye hurt like mad when I woke up. Something probably went in when I was sleeping. Couldnt open my eyes. Tearing and painful. Same after an hour of massive gashing water & eyedrops down the eyes.

Then my mother thought it might be 'red eyes'. So skipped work to see doctor. Turns out it is fine after another hour. (-_-)

So afterall its just something in the eyes. But I think I rubbed it too much that now my eyesight sucked.

But anyway I am told to take a break from the computer so I took a day off~

Well it is a good idea because recently I am getting giddy after staring at the computer for awhile. My neck and head feels like it is not connected anymore and so unstable. Lolx. But I always get that once in a while. Just need to rest.

Should not be using the com to blog but I am looking at the keyboard now so not too bad right?

It is so embrassing? Going to the doctor's for this many times in a month that the admin person know me. (-_-) And furthermore because of how nice the family doctor is, I dun have to get medicine for the previous consultations so no charge.

Really personally do think I live a very healthy life. Eh exercising & eating well so why do I still visit the doctor's so often especially this month?

Apparently as far as I can remember, it is not due to common colds and stuff. But because of how abnormal my bloody body feels like behaving. Growing a freaking painful and big lymph node without any infections? Tension Headaches, Chest Constrictions, Dizziness & whatever shit I cant remember due to stress? Like seriously.

Or maybe I worry too much?

Ah well...

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At the doctor's when requesting for MC.

Him: "Should be quite lenient to you at where you are working at now right? "
Me: *Silent*
Him: "But then again it might be tough"
Me: "YES YES YES But no one seems to understand that!"

Lol~ No one seems to understand that except mum and my sisters. Hahahaha. But at least I am grateful that there are at least people who understands.

Well now I need to clear my backlogs in my room!

Dearest computer, as much as I would love to be with you the whole day today, I cant because of my eyes and headache. Will be with you as soon as I am okay! *Hugs*

Give me a CLONE of the ex-her

I am really really upset with not being able to employ the person I really want.

Someone I really felt is so smart, capable and I can trust my work with.

Appealed, Find the MP, whatever I did whatever I can without success.

And yet it is so easy to employ someone else with a much lesser capability?

What sense does it make?

I cant employ a person just because the government dun approve her/him? And furthermore without a proper reason. I am really unhappy.

This case really deducted tons of respect I have for this place.

So how does employing someone actually make me feel so much?

Because this seriously affect my future.

Because I am not happy with the performance.

Because I am not particularly happy by the treatment.

Because I can hardly find something I am satisfied with.

Or maybe I am supposed to learn how to deal with people of all kinds.

Talk to my Hand

Exhausted... Out of Breath... Nauseous... Stuffy...

Is how I feel at the moment. But not because I am sick...

Because I have to be in a conversation for the whole day today. In summary, I have to listen someone speak to me and I have to occasionally reply them to be polite.

But I really want the conversation to stop...

I honestly do feel that I rather spend all that time working hard.

I am not a good listener or speaker unless the person can capture my attention.
(Btw I have a very short attention span...)

I was asked if I felt lonely when I worked alone in the office last time since I have no one to talk to.

My answer? HELL NO! I dun have to entertain anyone at all.

The problem probably lies with me. But how I can politely tell them that I am really tired and wish not to speak.

Holidays Over?!

Did not do anything at all for the 3 days holiday I had.

Time passes so fast.
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Ability to Heal - Nonexistent

Is it normal to have a bruise from a normal blood test that doesn't heal for more than a week?

Piano, Organ, Guitar or Violin

Piano Organ Guitar Violin

I want to learn a instrument but I cant decide which

Piano & Organ is a good choice since I dun have to buy anything. BUT I dun particularly listen to classics and normal songs. So I dun have a goal to work towards.

Violin looks so beautiful and elegant. BUT will drain my financies. And considering how easy I lose interest in things. It might not be a good idea.

I am seriously considering guitar. Then comes Acoustic, Classic or Electric Guitar.

Thought of classic at first, BUT after browsing the web, the type of music is not what I really like.

I listen to rock so electric seems the best bet. But it looks intimating from all the equipments I need to buy. Besides I have NO IDEA what to buy. I dun have anyone to help me as well?

GG. I dun even know where to go and learn.

Milk

Milk is good for you
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No One

Wondering...

If she should be sad that she can't find anyone to go out with.

Or be glad that it doesn't matter for she can do it on her own.

If everything fails, at least there is a place she can coop herself in.

Blogging through BB mail

Woot it worked!!

I can forsee myself spamming the blog with random thoughts~

Will try out the smsing function tomorrow!

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Test 1 2 3

Trying to blog using email. Let it work! (>.<)
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