Day 1

I cannot live like this any longer. The more I continue at what it is, I will just have more depression/sucidal episodes.

At least that is what I think.

I have to put some effort in my life.

So for my records, today

1. I FINALLY finished studying the basic book which I have been reading since the start of the year. (-_-) I still got the final to go which is like 10 times more difficult. This sucks.
   
2. I read 20 pages of the storybook I owed my younger sister. I only read 20 pages because my england is SHO BADO I have to check the dictionary for meanings and pronunciation like so many times I couldnt even keep track. And I read because I need to improve my wth english so it is necessary.
   
3. I attempted going through some japanese but realised my standard is so shitty I am stuck at memorising just 2 sentences. GG..

At least I tried right? Though it may seems insignificant but I shall believe that it will be beneficial to me.

Also I revived the dead otaku in me by finishing Gakuen Heaven & Kaichou wa Maid Sama. Both I thought I will never touch/finish but in the end they are not bad actually. Especially the later. No plot or whatever but I am a shallow person. Ha.

Motivation and determination to keep it up is what I need.

Now I have to sleep else my face will break out and my liver will suffer. Pathetic.