Day 2

Day 2

And I am already struggling.

Yoga lesson today is hardcore.

Unfortunately never once can I remember any postition to practice at home.

For records:

1. 1 Chapter of the Book. Just to make it sound better but as a matter of fact it is just 8 pages. (-_-)
   
2. 5 Sentences of Jap. Like seriously it is so freaking difficult. I dun think I can finish the book within 3 weeks. Even if I memorise 1 page a day from today.

But I shall excuse myself because I came home late today. *Nod Nod*

Not looking good when it is just the second day.

Also I quarrelled with my sis today. Honestly it can be avoided and it is not even necessary.

But it have been on my mind, I couldnt understand, I am not in a good mood, have been agitated and it was at the tip of my tongue. So I shot it out.

So! I dun know what else to say now and is not advisable to think too hard coz I need to sleep.

Day 1

I cannot live like this any longer. The more I continue at what it is, I will just have more depression/sucidal episodes.

At least that is what I think.

I have to put some effort in my life.

So for my records, today

1. I FINALLY finished studying the basic book which I have been reading since the start of the year. (-_-) I still got the final to go which is like 10 times more difficult. This sucks.
   
2. I read 20 pages of the storybook I owed my younger sister. I only read 20 pages because my england is SHO BADO I have to check the dictionary for meanings and pronunciation like so many times I couldnt even keep track. And I read because I need to improve my wth english so it is necessary.
   
3. I attempted going through some japanese but realised my standard is so shitty I am stuck at memorising just 2 sentences. GG..

At least I tried right? Though it may seems insignificant but I shall believe that it will be beneficial to me.

Also I revived the dead otaku in me by finishing Gakuen Heaven & Kaichou wa Maid Sama. Both I thought I will never touch/finish but in the end they are not bad actually. Especially the later. No plot or whatever but I am a shallow person. Ha.

Motivation and determination to keep it up is what I need.

Now I have to sleep else my face will break out and my liver will suffer. Pathetic.

Must get more shoes

My shoes NEVER match.

HA...
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Home

It feels SOOO GOOD to be home~
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Gatherings

Big relative gatherings never fail to make me awfully depressed...
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Ears

Maybe it is in the blood or something.

Maybe it is a human kinda thing.

People DUN LISTEN, DUN UNDERSTAND & only BELIEVE in what they thinks.

Maybe its being like that can one make it big in life.

It is terribly frustrating and tiring. Sometimes it makes me feel that I shouldn't have said anything at all.

Actually it is more fascinating to see them debate among themselves.

Will I be like one of them? Or maybe I already am?

A Thousand of Needles

Felt as if a thousand of needles stuck on my feet.

Another dozen on my hands.

It was one excruciating night.

Nightmares. Nauseousness. And the persistant pain...

Does not help not sharing a hotel room.

Crap. My holiday where I am given 2 more hours to sleep. Gone like that.

Yet I dun know what else I can do since I am not supposed to disturb anyone.

Sent from a hotel room toilet. Pathetic...

Mini Break to Australia

Yay completed my job JUST IN TIME!

Waiting in the airport for my flight.

Going to spend an uncomfortable night on the plane.

Sadded...
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