Finished Code Geass!

Omg I just finished Code Geass R1 & R2 in a week. Spending any free time I have on my hands.

Now that I finished I feel so depressed and empty.

*Sobs* I haven watched an anime that make me feel "something" for the longest time and make me so absorbed.

Its weird considering that it is an anime that consist 3 things I tend to shun:

1. Mecha / Robots
2. War / Politics / Government / Military
   
3. Brains / Deep
   

So that is probably why I actually dragged this long to actually watch the anime. In fact I think it is a miracle I watched it in the first place. But I am glad since I can watch it all in one goal before I lose steam.

Or maybe its because I have no expectations of it that make me like it? Hmmmm.

Well honestly speaking I probably din really manage to understand all of the parts. *Cough* Coz I am really stupid and my brain shut off when there are so many logic and talking.

There are so many twists and turns in the plot. As much as I would like to type more about it, I couldnt because it is so late now my brain is shutting off.

*Sobs* The last episode really got into me. Maybe I am emotional that it is the last episode.

Now now I better lock up "Otaku Chan" for a while since I have neglected everything but anime watching for the past week.

*"Otaku Chan" is suffering from depression at the moment*

I feel like I cant breathe...

I feel so unwell... Mentally...

Work? What is it again?

The number of times I set my mind to be more involved in work.

I failed the equal number.

I feel really sick, tired, depressed every single time after the failed attempt.

I decided. I will not be bothered by it anymore.

Numbers will just be numbers. Sickening work politics/culture will not affect me. And every thing doesnt concern me.

I will just do what I am given and nothing more. Afterall I din work because I like it. I work just for the money. Because with money I can do lots of things.

You know, I really do want to be someone who can make it big in life, rich, independant, knowledgeable, someone my parents can be proud of, or even someone I myself can be proud of.

But apparently it doesnt seem like I am cut out for it. It can be so fascinating how clueless I still am in life.

That aside, not like I only realised it now. I will still attempt to do more for my life. Because afterall there is no one else you can depend on but yourself.

I hope that tonight will be the last night I will shed work-related tears.

Good bye work. You sucked. Just give me the money.